Receiving God's Grace

I am so thankful for God’s Grace. That we don’t get what we deserve. Studying God's word has revealed to me that God's Grace refines our movement, we are no longer the same that we become new. Without God’s Grace sin would still have rule over us. Some don’t

understand just what it’s like to be ruled by sin because they are still in it.

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Yet I remember a time in my life where I was always doing things that I knew was not good for me but didn’t know how to stop. It was like why do I do those things that I know will lead me into a place where I feel bad about myself. At the time I had multiple partners, I smoke, I drank, I was bitter, angry, and depressed. There were probably much more things I was doing like lying and stuff but one sin opened the door to many of them. I got to the point where I was tired of fighting. Just figured this would be my life, I knew it could be better but I didn’t know how to get out of it. I had already flunked out of school was still living with my parents and at the time the only way to deal with it was to go deeper into sin.

Then one day, I was so low, I was no longer eating well. I remember my mom coming into my room offering me some of my favorite breakfast and I turned her down. In that moment I knew I was at my end of myself. I didn’t know what to do but I opened my bible and begin to read God's word. I knew that God was calling me but I had always felt unworthy, but his grace and mercy was bigger than that. Even in that time I struggled to fully give my life to God I wanted all that God had for me but at the same time I was still a slave to sin.

So torn I didn’t know what to do. I convinced myself that I knew God even though I was living in sin. This is something that we all do. Pray on and off show up at church, come to God when we need him yet our relationship with him is more of here say relationship.

More gossip then really carrying the gospel. Some will get it some won’t.

Anyways, Marrying my husband was one blessing that pushed me to have my own relationship with God. My husband had told me Christmas 2017 that he didn’t want to be with me and I remember feeling so broken. I just knew that I couldn’t go back to God because I had forsake him for my husband. Before meeting my husband, I just began to seek God wholeheartedly and then was distracted and pulled back into sin. I just thank God he didn’t give me what I deserve. If he was a man he probably would of told me I told you so, now don’t come back to me cause he left you. God's Grace though! He wrapped his arms around me he urged me to come back.

He brought me to his people to minister to me and to help me through.They encouraged me through letting me know that God is a restorer of broken things and that he would restore my marriage. There were times I would just cry because I couldn't imagine this being my life. Brothers and sisters it was not easy but it was so worth it.

Over time I began to pray and see God again and really receive that he loved me without a shadow of a doubt. That the things that I was facing wasn't a punishment because I didn't stay seeking him but that he would use those hurts to draw me closer to him. I began to worship pray and sing like never before. My hope began to be restored and I believed that my marriage wouldn't be this way always. Eventually after months of my husband living at a co-workers house on base, he was home and he wanted to make things work.

Doesn’t mean that things didn't still come up against me but I knew that with God I would have the grace to go through them. That even in those weak and vulnerable parts in my life that his grace would be all that I need. This is not to tell you that because you serve God every situation will go the way you want or have the outcome you want. Yet in every situation God will help you see the growth its bringing and to give you hope that your future will be brighter than your present.

“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my power is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” -2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭KJV‬‬

Just here to encourage others that God's Grace is sufficient enough. Go to God with a made up mind, ready to repent and to give up your old ways. What he has for us is better than the world can ever give. You’ve been in the world long enough turn your heart to God and forsake the rest. Trust it will be the best decision of your life.

Peace & Favor